Today...

"The wise woman builds her house, but with her own hands the foolish one tears hers down." - Proverbs 14:1

"For I know the plans I have for you... "

Hello blog world,

Let's just say it has been a long Christmas break. I guess you could say I did not use that break to take full advantage of the free time I had. Since I got back from Thailand I have had one grumpy day after another (I'm surprised my hubby can stand to be around me). It seems as if I have done nothing but mope around and feel sorry for myself. You would think that after coming back from a place like Bangkok I would feel nothing but gratitude for this life that I lead. Instead I have been doing nothing but complaining about the job I have but don't like and acting as if I deserve all the pleasures in life I wish for. I guess a big reason I have been so mopey is because I feel such an urgency to do something great in life. To change lives and set the captives free. All I want to do is rush back to Thailand and and go rescue every girl I came in contact with. But this morning a thought struck me. It is not me who will swoop in and save the day and set the captives free but Christ through me. Without Him I am nothing. I can do nothing. I am nothing but a weak, frail little girl who lets her emotions get the best of her. The passions and desires I feel are God given and I know that one day he will place Adam and I in the right place at the right time and until that day I will continue to work this mundane job I don't like selling rich people clothes and listen to them rant about the cost of shipping and handling. My husband has been placed in an amazing job that he loves where he gets to see kids come to know the Lord as their Savior every week. Until the time comes when God moves us from this place I will continue to be the wife my husband needs me to be and support him as he serves where the Lord has placed him.

Nam, Nam and Sai...

Today my heart and mind is very much in Bangkok. I can't seem to keep my mind from playing certain scenes over in my mind and certain faces from running through my mind and heart. I keep thinking about these 16 year old LITTLE girls that I met and I wonder what they will be doing tonight. I would like to imagine that they are safe and not in the bars and are doing what 16 year old little girls are made to do. But I know the reality is that if I were to go back there tonight I would find them in the same bar dancing and serving customers. I have to keep reminding myself that it is not a hopeless situation. That even the smallest light can penetrate the deepest darkest room.